Politics oh lovely politics

As I watch the Sunday political shows and hear over and over about the million and billionaires and the non exsistent middle class, I wonder about the homeless, the POOR, the ones who used to be middle class which is most of the country now who are constantly railroaded by the big companies and the rich. WHAT IS BEING DONE FOR THE POOR, THE MAJORITY OF THE COUNTRY???

All this talking the talk but not walking the walk. The Republicans, the Democrats need to straighten their panties, grow up and sit down and discuss what's best for the country not the rich, the special interests, the big companies.

The rich, the special interests, the big coompanies caused this economy mess, they can suck it up, pay the taxes, hire employees and fix this economy. They cause this disaster then run and hide and point fingers at the President for not fixing it fast enough.

I was born and raised in a upper and middle middle class family. I am now a disabled 27 yr old who is unemployed. I can not get disability from the government, I can not get any help from the government. I can not finish my education because of University of Phoenix raping me financially, made me take out additional student loans to cover my government grant that they stole, I can not get a job because Ive been out of work for two years. Also employers do credit checks and I have the worst credit because of hundred of thousands of dollars in medical bills so they judge me. I can not get a job to fix my credit and get health insurance. I am scraping the barrel of life, depression, suicide screaming for help but being ignored because I am young, white (yes I am being discriminated against because of my color because its assumed I have money, all these opportunities, these privileges and I dont), and a female without a completed education.

I am a VERY intelligent, honest hard worker who loves her country. If I could join the military I most certainly would. Yet another option taken from me.

What is the government doing for me? NOTHING. What is the government doing for others like me and mu family? NOTHING. We elected them they need to be working for us, doing what is best for us.

Fucking shut up, remember your morals and values, what your mother taught you, TREAT OTHERS AS YOU WISH TO BE TREATED, WITH RESPECT AND HONESTY, pull your heads out of your asses and do your job right. You are a public servant working for us the other 97% pf the country, the important ones, get it right.

My mother raised me Republican which I was proud to be. People laughed when I used to proudly say Im Republican. "There's no way you're Republican. Not wishy washy whiny fake religious attention whorish like other Republicans." I would just brush thos off and shrug. But it got me thinking after I read all the hate that was wrapped up in religious morals the Republicans were spewing and still are spewing. Damn hypocrites. I researched what a Republican is, what a Democrat is, liberal, conservative blahblah. I am now ashamed to say I was proud to be Republican. To quote rapper T.I. : "Your values is a dissaray, prioritizin' horribly; Unhappy with the riches 'causes you're piss poor morally; Ignorin' all prior advice and forewarnin'; And we mighty full of ourselves all of a sudden aren't we?"

All the politicians are piss poor morally. They need to step back, cut the crap and do what is right for the country.

So....

This post will be LONG. With entries from my hard copy journal.

POLITICAL ASPIRATIONS

(If I even spelled that right)

(written 8-29-09)

Senator Edward M (Teddy) Kennedy died last week. Today was his funeral/memorial. An American hero; who fought for the poor, the weak, the forgotten, the depriced. What an inspiration.

Before my accident, when I was still in school, I wanted to get a law degree to go into ploitics. Then I changed my mind for the Army (to be a MP then a police officer). After my accident I didn't know what I was going to do with the rest of my fucked up life.

To be President used to be a dream, to make a difference, since I was little. But now that's like impossible. Presidents (or President hopefuls) are so persecuted, and ripped apart to make sure they are innocent and lily white. Which isn't fair. A lot of Americans would politicans to be more personable, to actually have life experiences like the rest of country. But that's not what happens. They have to be religious even though church and state are supposed to be seperate. And people assassinate presidents because they are not God and has to make decisions for the whole country not individuals. So my parents are divorced. My dad is an alcoholic and former drug user. Same with my mum. I was a whore as a child. I had a child while I was still a child; underage and unmarried. My mum has an illegetimate child. Drugs, sex, cussing, Taking the Lord's name in vain, obsessed with drinking all kinds of crap that would become fodder to use against me. A whole bunch of life experiences that aren't pretty. And now I'm disabled and have health problems and will always have them and more. I would be judged beyond belief. What kind of American dream is that.

Next best thing? To become a senator. But how do you do that? To be a senator, I could make all the differences I want. Help young girls/women, stop drunk driving, fight for and help children, families and young people who need help, help abuse victims and devastating accident victims, save/help animals; to name a few. The foundations I want to start. And have a job that is not physically trying, but emotionally and mentally challenging. My way of serving my country even though I can not go into the military. What would my legacy be? That ANYONE (rich, poor, pretty, ugly, whoever) can do whatever they dream? That females ARE equal? That depression and suicide aren't the answer and that yes mental illness is REAL? Would my grandma be proud? Wuld my dad? That I'm not a fuck-up? Would I make myself proud?

It'll be a long hard road, but so worth it. The challenge is exciting. I love challenges and problems. I love to learn and to help.



ACTUALLY I'm not going to post anymore from my journal. Lots of cussing and very very very angry. :)